Wednesday, January 04, 2006
okay my com restarted on me so i have to type all over again. rarrrr
yesterday was first day of school and it sucked. it was horrid. i think it was just me. at the start of the day, i was still feeling enthusiastic and having high hopes of a good day and as time flies, i found myself getting more and more depressed. the only happy exprerience with a new j1 was meeting my sc junior charlene. at least i felt happy to see her around. but i only met her once the entire day. anyway, the feeling of left out is bleah. i just can't blend in. i tried talking and talking to one ig mate and i ended up feeling like i was talking to myself. kind of. and the rest of the girls were like connecting really well. so i gave up and together with louie and right in front of our IGs, we ditched them when they were playing icebreakers and went to grandstand. they must have thought we were disgusting people but now thinking, who cares? ( as what louie said). the happiest thing yesterday was seeing the t37 people especially dawn and phy and also wq and huihui. and we talked a lot of rubbish. but to make me feel tons better, at least i have louie with me. and at least louie wasn't just a friend. she's my close friend :)
hmm. i remember around this time last year, i would be getting to see my new class 1t08. the class which i cried about on the first day i went home or went to wq's house actually. but never did i realise that 1t08 turned out to be one of the best class experiences i've ever had. the class was close, we were like brothers and sisters. everyone truly cared for each other in this small class of 18 ( and which 18 slower became lesser and lesser). but more importantly for me, finding friends whom i can talk heart to heart with. not just one but quite a few. and seeing them after first 3 months, i would always find that warm familarity in them.
so here i am not in school cos i can't bear to drag myself into feeling urghish. i hope tomorrow will be a better day. a day just like last year where i cry the first time i know my class but love them to nuts afterwards. i wish for a first 3 months class like 1t08. sigh.
and i'm so jealous minhui watched It Started With A Kiss already! haha.
:: phong
love you like a sister;
12:58 pm
